Oh my God. I simply don't know what to say. I'm speechless yet not. Things are definitely running through my mind so fast I can't even begin to type them. Everything is racing. My business trip dream? *****? Well. Shit. I found her. For real. Online. It's fucking her! I can't even believe how many times I've looked before and came up empty handed. But tonight? I found her site. I find she's more than okay. I find that she smiles more. She's happy and successful. Oh and she found someone to hold her which I find slightly annoying in ways that are completely unjustified. Jealousy is a bitch. I'm sure she'd love knowing I feel that. Somebody's making her happy. Somebody changed everything for her. Man, in a way this feels good and in another it's heartbreaking. Her eyes? I cannot even tell ya how gorgeous they are. Her cheekbones, well everything. I think she finally realized what a beautiful creature she was. Now comes the hard part sit back and just read her stories, admire her art work and read how she's making her way. Now if I can make myself not send her an anonymous email apologizing for being an asshole, running off instead of explaining or listening and telling her how absolutely stunning she is.

Makes me think of her every time I hear Caroline. ( Concrete Blonde )

But her song was always Voodoo Dolly.
( Siouxsie & The Banshees )