Okay raise your hand if you missed me? Anyone? No? hehe Well I am back whether you want me to be or not. Lots has happened and well I'll be nice and put some cuts in here to protect you from utter boredom. Fair? I think so.

Oh I think I am placing myself in such a good place. Seriously. I'm not sure how or why things are happening like they are. Is it that I'm open to it? That I'm risking more of myself? Willing to be hurt? Trusting a little more? Oh I'm not sure. Maybe.

Let's start with my business trip.... It went pretty well overall. I saved reading my book to the very last minute and in doing so crammed all the details in my scattered little brain. I simply can't pretend to be interested in things I'm not. It bored me to tears. But hey kudos to my boss for caring enough to extend himself to these motivational style meetings. I mean seriously hats off. Usually someone in his position would careless where my mind or heart was on any given day. He really doesn't have to do these things but he does. Our business as I like to pretend it is, is doing quite well. In fact I really do love my job as much as I will spend a great deal of time bitching and complaining about it.

I have homework. Rewrite a Shopper Report so it makes some damn sense and write an installation guide for track shelving. Should be sorta wild since I've only installed one closet and it was at work. Wonder why the product company itself doesn't have one ready made? Somebody somewhere gets paid to do stuff like this. Oh well I'll take care of it.

( Mom Cut )

Now on the mom topic, she kept hinting she wanted to talk about something but she never did. Makes me wonder. Some things are better left unsaid and as much as I've wanted her to say a few things about this or that issue, I think we could do better without that conversation. I think I might let it go. I say think because well I can say I will because I just don't know.

( ***** Cut )

I came back to pretty decent weather. Hit work for a closing with my one of my boys. He's been great lately. I'm very impressed. Then I had Sat off. But spent that sick. Damn tedious cold. That night I was determined to go out and do something. Y called and asked about dinner. Dinner? Hell yeah. I miss her too much to say no. Man it was so nice, the food was okay but the live band was awesome. Nice instrumentals. And we kept pretending we knew every song, like, "Oh my God. Can you believe they're playing 'Scar Tissue' by Red Hot Chili Peppers? Oh wait that's 'Love Shack' by the B 52s! No way they're doing the 'Bond Theme.'" No seriously they did that one. Zach was so cute. He kept waving his little hand as if conducting the band.

Almost forgot that last night almost didn't happen. Work called to let me know that some shelving fell on two of our customer's cars. Yeah that was sorta nerve racking. A little stressful as I found out all the info I needed from the owner of our store and called back to speak with the customers. I put on all my charm and expressed how sorry we were that their cars were damaged and that we would take care of everything Monday morning with our insurance company. I have all their details in case I need to contact them and exchanged numbers as well. It was weird how understanding they were. I mean I would have been off the hook if that had happened to me. But I tried to make sure they knew we'd take care of it ASAP.

Then Sunday went somewhat smoothly. One bitchy customer put me in a bad mood but I'm over it. Amazing how people can honestly be such assholes. See these are the ones where you really want to know where they work so you can go be served by them. A little of their own medicine. But hey what goes around comes around. With an attitude like that hers will come around sooner than later. I believe you reap what you sow.

I got to reconnect with **. Hope you know that even a short time is a lot. That I need you. Hope you need me too.

Well that's the song playing! hehe

Oooh I have a what would you call it a lunner date? I know we have a word for the that breakfast-lunch but what about lunch-dinner? I'm so excited. I just called her up and she said yep! Holy shit, Tori Amos came on with ( Way Down )

That's weird cos that's her girl. Ha and now my man Rob Zombie is on with ( Demonoid Phenomenon )

This will be a good moment of togetherness I think! Now I'm waiting impatiently for her to do her hair and make-up call me so we can meet. God this is a lifetime.

Oh oh oh! Forgot to mention, my bike was lowered when I was on my trip! I rode the big ass bike! Whoo hoo! It kicks so much ass it's not even funny. More power! Heavier though. Our house is up on a little hill and well I choked trying to get up the drive. Freaking hilarious. I sat there holding the 500 pound bike going, "Help me babe! I'm stuck!" We adjusted the idle so it shouldn't really do that again.

Something trivial.
1)I love my hair. It's more red, more like my summer red. I cheated but so what? Makes my whole outlook on things so much happier. I should probably cut it though. It's getting really long.
2)Yogurt, how do you know when it's bad? I'll just toss it. Buy more.